Felt the need to blog...
Sometings r btr left unsaid, i now wan say also can le...i gonna change blog soon...
Haix....
Gonna change...
wan noe site, ask me PERSONALLY

In case u dono hu she is, SHE IS MY GF !!! hahaha suprising ? lol
Eating her Beef ramen lol..at Jurong Point...

She's super zilian =w= tats zhuo na n steven behind :D (red n blue de)
AT SENTOSA :D

He's super poor ting la, we playing he look after bags =w=

Ying Hui n Mandy GOH :D lol they r scary k =w=...

Tats Pearly Yeo Xuan Bing hahaha :)

I noe the view is nice but my photography skills not so good :x...

HAHAHAHA...fun time at sentosa the day b4 :D
lol me, mandy, pearly, zhuona, janice, baoling, glen, steven, ying hui n *1 malay fren*
LOL....pearly went to the sky ride or someting with Janice Zhuona n Baoling coz there r 2 couples here hahaha...onli left me, mandy, glen, steven n yinghui
(couples including me n mandy, glen with his YingHui *she's super scary*)
hahaha...Its super hot n fun :D
2 couples we r like walkin along shores of sentosa at Emerald de very far end...
Got another couple doin god noes wat there so we walk abit off
I was the onli 1 half naked in the water =w=
Water wrestling with glen...he kinda easi to push ba
Then Hug mandy for quite some time :X
hahaha ! NOT ONLI ME LEH, ying hui they two also, kissing somemore -w-
the girls cant go in the water, so poor ting if not i would hav carried Mandy in :D
hahaha...Super hot, mandy is liek blushing n super sweating when i huggin her in the hot sun lol...i ask her if she having fever she say no thermometer dono hahaha
But she's like super hot, so scary...
Then on n on play until 5+, i change le then Met Zhuona Sis lol...
She actaully wan pass $$ to zhuona but tat time we not sure if got meet her so nv take lor...
She says i hav good figure =w= (wait till she sees Yh de or Hry de)
Lol...they keep saying bout wearing bikini ZZZ
She wear de shirt is super short n when she bends down every1 will see erhhmmm...so whenever she bends down, i need to b behind hahaha
Then Pearly go back by herself after shopping with them :(
thx sis !...lol...oh ya b4 goin i buy OP slipper n lost $11 =w=...
Haix..
HAHAHA 5 more days to the day it all began :D lol
Then yinghui n glen were like kissing unconsiderately on train =w=
Me n mandy go Jurong point meet janice baoling, zhuona they all
Then see her eat her noodles le
Angry at some1 for some reason zzz...
Then send her home, on train share earpiece hahaha
then when reach, she insisted i stay on the train n don come out, directly home
But i didnt care :D i went off it...Hug her good bye n BLA BLA BLA...
then take nex train back le :S
HAIX NO ME N HER DE PIC COZ TAKE QUITE AFEW LE SHE SAY NOT NICE DELETE =w=
I swear i wan her pic !!! i miss her so ! :(
Well, she grounded for 1 month, so until april then can come out
ahhaha which is Yinghui de sch carnival hahaha
I wan my pic with her !!!!! lol
Sis getting more emo ! coz her (%^*&) went overseas =w= she misses him
Her (^&*^*_+|) wans to call their daughter Dawn or Clare...
I WAN DAWN !!! ITS BOOKED ALREADY !!!! lol...
Mandy say i bias, so good to girls, make sure nex time onli hav girls in the family lol
OMG !!! she wants to b MRS GOH by influence, coz of someting i said :x
Not sure wat but she says she wants...
When i don even tink i wan a family coz i don wan follow my father de footsteps leh !
I don wan a broken family n i NV WAN TO HURT HER...
She says i wont...I scared i will
Coz i dreamt bout it...N THE 3rd PARTY IS FCUKIN UGLY zzz...
damn it lol...
She gave me a chance to ask her anyting i wan lol...RARE...
Then i ask her "do u tink i will leave u if i cant tolerate ur frens ?"
abit dissapointed coz her asn was "i tink will ! tat day when (T#&@) make u, ur face black black le..."
I told her i wont leave her for such stupid reasons hahaha
I LOVE U MANDY GOH !!! hear tat ? lol...she's fast asleep le ba lol...
Today whole day at home watch Yh play dota
N MY POST R LONG COZ I SELDOM BLOG LA LOL...hahaha
Mp's books r scarier than her =w= RUN !!! AHHH lol...
Mandy is like abit weird all tis while...for some reason...Haix...her phone no money n she stubborn don wan me top up for her =w=....
She's my gf for godness sake, she can jus rely on me awhile la HAHAHAHA...
Its not like i will complain or anyting...LOL...
K la i go sleep le nites guys....

Im a jerk...
I lied to ppl who place all their faith n trust on me...
Now even i cant forgive myself...
Y isit tis way...
Y m i like tis...
Hope she nv sees tis but...
Coz tis is the place it all ends, happiness, misery, anger
Taste n parts of my life...Mainly sorrow...so i rather she was nv here....
Im a jerk...M i worth for her ? M i wat she realli wants or isit just an illusion ?
I don dare to tink...ppl tell me not to tink
Im not a counceler, Nv was, N nv will b...I cant even cure myself, how do i cure others
Im the root of all problems
If onli i nv did tis/tat...If onli i did tis/tat...
Everyting its me...I wan the blame on me, i wan to take it entirely myself n self-destruct
N mayb after 10yrs of the road they will forget me, no more sorrow or pain...
The begining they will miss me, but time cures all wounds
They will forget me...They must
Some saying is right...I like to take overwhelming amount of worries n troubles onto myself
But the false part the sentense didnt cover is how all tis worries n troubles kill me
Pushing me into suicide...
I deserves all tis more than others...There r ppl 10x, 100x, 1000x btr than me
Im replaceable...i rather b...
Im not emo, not attention-seeking, u can dont look, i rather u don...
I cant bear down dinner...
I may not sleep...feel free to pour more troubles into me...
Help me speed up my slow death...
Hu cares...
Atleast there wont b a root to all tis problems...dont u all agree ?
I rather she not forgive me, n tell me to kill myself...
It feels like death...

Akon
Sorry, Blame It On Me
As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to move
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad

When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
[ Akon Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief

I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

Haix im having mixed feelings now...
I miss some1, at the same time its good tat i actually does miss her
Even if she'll b jus gone for afew days....
I LOVE HER...i mean it ! i wan my future to include her :D
I hope i will appear in her future too :)
HAHAHA....im so bored n fed up now :s
Very funny at the same time tinkin wat we've done together...
Its realli sweet...so is SHE...
I *WAN* to b a good bf :)

Nikki is scarier than ever JKJK
Jul is now very quiet n lifeless leh :S...so bored....
Pearly's being entertained :)

She's in camp !!!! haix...i miss her :(
I don tink i would...BUT ITS UNBEARABLE...
Somemore i will hav to wait till April to see her again :(
She means alot to me....almost everyting
I used to tink tat everyting in my life can b thrown away with ease...SO i can die whenever i wan n no1 will noe n get sad bout it...
Its the first time some1 is so sweet n concern bout me...Super softener for my heart
Even when she knew it didnt hurt, she cant help but say sry
Even when she knew im not angry, she cheers me up
She gets angry when i don take care of myself
She gets angry when i don eat...
She made me realise tat some1 would care more than my mom...
Some1 i cant bear to let go off
I was told not to say anyting bout breaking
Coz when i told her IF i broke up with her, She was ok atfirst, THEN SHE CRIED !!! Im super guilty ! :( i shldnt have questioned !
SRY PIGGY :(
I dono wat i can do more...I wanna do alot more :)
I noe u don need but i wan ok :)
When her hands r cold, i wan to warm her hands with my hot hands...
Its like instinct to me...(im not gentlemen)
I jus feel like tat...She doesnt take chances of me being nice to ladies !
We practically can talk from wat hapeen now/today/whenever to someting more
Its like nv ending...I NV WAN IT TO END !!!
I hurt some1 b4 (i tink so) I don wan again...
Hahs....I LOVE U !!!!!!!!!!!
Hugging u is like glued lol...don wan let go lol...
Ur face is like super nice to pinch !
Ur hair is like 1 1 1 1 1 sticking out :)
Ur hands r smooth n cold at times :)
HAHAHA.... :D....i nv knew i said so much bout her...
The day we went out is treasured :D
U r more important than me :)
13 days to someting tat worths more than my life...
Byes now :)
Bye guys !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....

TODAY WAS SUPER !
First few times I realli treasure each hr of the day...
I WAN TO STAY CLOSER TO HER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:(
hahaha but its kinda enough for me...
VERY ENOUGH !!!!!!!! hahaha
Im so happy now...
But she isnt replying my msgs :( haix...dono if she sleep le or wat...
I tink she sleep le ba :)
HAHAHA....We were at zn hse...waiting for her go clementi there with two of us....
Coz she insist zn go...so we at her hse wait, while she make her go
In the end zn go but piggy had to pay for her subway meal...
Its damn fun at zn hse lor i was playing with her...Pinching ! hahahaha
Then at subway eat n talk talk awhile...FORGOT TO EAT LOL...
:D:D:D:D
hahahaha....she said i will die the nex time i go out hahaha
hahahaha....Then she n I at some void deck talk after zn go home...talk talk bout her sch...alot tings hahahaha...damn funny...
Then take mrt with her back :D....I LOVE HER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wan to love her more coz im afraid of losing her...I DON WAN BREAK HER HEART !
hahs....All the bad luck is like nth when i with her....
We were so close !
N thx JUL ! if u ever sees tis :x
Thx for ur concern.... :) Im ok :)
got afew pics but cant upload...n some pics on zn's com wait her send me hahahaha....
Ok...bye ppl if they is even 1...

HAHAHAHA...
How long can i hold tat smile sia...
Haix....wat bad luck !!!!!!!! wth...wtf....WTH !
pressure....Y M I FEELING IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haix....
I cant blame any1 n anyting for wat i done
Mandy checks my horo for me n it says tat im taking on too much worries, troubles n pressure onto myself but im not overwhelmed i shld take tings 1 by 1...
Haix i tink its kinda true
I scared i break down....IM STRONG but strong enough ?
WAs tings ever enough ?
There's a need there will b providing
Its nv enough...I wan to jus sleep n forget it all but its not how i do tings
Not my style...Im not the type hu dodges troubles...I take them on head to head...
I BELIEVE I CAN HANDLE IT COZ THERE R PPL HANDLING MUCH MORE !
haix....
i wished no1 knew but i cant take it ok...i noe not much ppl comes to my blog now...so its my chance to let some steam out...
I noe how to encourage ppl to b positive but how to do it, im not so sure myself....
Im nothing but me...
I DON HAVE A STRONG POINT i can depend on...
I suck at my studies
I suck at sports
I suck at even gaming
HAIX....WAT CAN I DO !!!!!!!!
I don wan tis...pls...
Now all i hope is not to break her heart...
Its innocent
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....

OH YA !
important news !
Ms Leng is sick n loves torturing her students ! HAHAHAHA
lol she not so bad la hahahaha
but she bullies ZZZ...
ok i go bath le BYE !